Is My Life Going To Get Better?

Not knowing you or what you are going through ,its hard to answer that question.being through a 100 times what a normal person goes through in a lifetime,(war at the age of 17,addiction,lose of children,a wife,a family,this just keeps going on and on)i'm here to tell you things do get better!you become strong in yourself,lets try it this way.after loosing everything that i thought was important to me ,i found that that was only the start of my journey. i found myself alone,not right in the head from the war (viet nam) ,and very afraid that i would do something to myself.i just didn't care anymore.i took off across the u.s. (hitchhiking) i ran into this person that saw something in me.(to this day i still don't know what she saw in me) well i became very close to this very special person.she saved my life.but this took a long time ,i didn't trust anyone.but for some reason this person became my friend.not my lover not my wife but my friend. it was like starting life all over again.there is a lot that i have left out.i could bring you to tears with what has happened in my lifetime.and you would ask why didn't he just give up. well ill tell you why,i learned to love myself again .now my bills are almost always late, i'm not happy with the woman in my life and things just don't go the way i want them to.but i know deep in my heart that things will get better.they always do. you see that life is not a bed of roses, you have to fight for what you want.no matter how many let downs you get, there is always the one thig that stands out in your life. mine is this very special person that i met so many years ago,i just buried her 3 months ago, she was 82. i'm 52. she thought me how to live again. ill miss her with all of my heart, but when its my time to go i know that ill see her again. i don't know if this helped you any,i hope that it did.just remember that when things look the darkest,you'll find that way to make things better.hang in there because i have a feeling that what you are looking for isn't that far off. and when you do find it ,keep it . there is something special heading your way,for some reason i can fell that its not that far off. don't do anything stupid.thing are going to get better

Sometimes we attract negative things to our lives.  One way we do this is  by concentrating on ourselves too much and always trying to figure out how we're messed up and how to fix it.  When we do this we are putting a lot of concentration on  negative aspects of ours.  The negative aspects are strengthened just by you doing this.  Try to focus on your positive aspects and put your concentration into those and ignore your negatives and see what happens.