I've had a crush on my cousin for years. I didn't know he was my cousin until about 2 years ago when we found out that the man that my 2nd cousin married was his mother's father. He started progressing way quicker than me. He also sometimes brings girls to his house and if I knock on his room door and then I see a girl in it I get jealous and my heart starts to hurt. This crush has lasted for 8 years and I've never felt this way with a crush before, if I start to think of it as love instead of interest my heart will break even more. Any advice?
You might want to do a little reading on this site before you go any further. Personally? I think it best that you move on and find a real boyfriend. Doesn't sound like your cousin is much interested in you. Move on !