You have some serious issues... Which (so it seems) will become of the legal variety.

Sure just listen to your heart. If you really like her go for it!

My girl friend? Sorry got the wrong guy

It's not really something you can discribe but trust me when you do fall in love you remember everything about that moment. I can tell you everything that happened when i first realized that i was in the love, the date, what i was doing, what i saw, even what song was on the radio. Its like your heart has finally come alive and you just feel amazing, like you're walking on air or something. You want to laugh and cry and jump up and down really fast from excitement and the only thing you can focus on is that one person. Its like your heart pulls you to them and they're all you can think about and even just the simple thought of them makes you smile. I still catch myself looking at my boyfriend while he's sleeping and cry a little just thinking about how much i love him. Extremely girly but i can't help it. When you're in love everything just changes, i went from a emotional cut off and kind of goth person to a girly girl who can't stop smiling for the life of her and for the most part chris made the same change (only he turned into the male equivalant of a girly girl lol). Its definetly the best feeling in the world and its far better than you can even imagine and far better than anyone could ever discribe.

Um...happy to help...i think. If you're still worried about your problem with that girl...i think you really do know what you should do but you also know how hard its going to be to do it and therefore don't want to. Tough spot you're in but you just have to try hanging out with people you're own age (or close to it). Good luck.