GET OUT, GET OUT, GET OUT, have love for yourself more, than for beautiful things.  The things are not important, living a peaceful existence is.  You have to think about yourself, your life.  God did not put us on this earth for someone else to mistreat us.  Find a way, soon, even if it means uprooting to another state.  Be BRAVE!!! THE REWARD IS WILL BE AFTER YOU GET OUT.   My prayers will be with you. JUST DO IT!!! 

Honey, if anyone is in an abusive relationship, RUNNNNN! I was married to a very abussive man. He is a drunk and very mean man. It took me nine year to get away from him. I thought I would stay for the kids. That was a huge mistake! I finally got away from him. You would be surprised how differnet life can be with someone that doesn't abbuse you. You can be happy and feel safe at the same time. It is wonderful! Good Luck and God Bless