ask god to help you with that
You only have one shot at life why not make the best of it.
Only you can decide what makes you happy. Stay positive. Life is too short to be miserable.
I think a good start toward being happy is being grateful for what we have (loved ones, a new day, food, shelter, etc.) Dwelling on what we lack does the opposite.
Just simplify life.
Follow your dreams! I am a big fan of Manchester United. I have watched practically all its matches and plan to visit some alive. I even bet through https://777score.ph/ on them from time to time for adrenaline buzz;) If you want to follow football simply pick up a club and start support it. I wish I could do what I want!