So I’m wondering what could be the main cause of my depression and how can I resolve it. Maybe it’s because my best friend wouldn’t go out with me so I lost her? Or the fact that I’m single and feeling lonely? Or maybe it’s porn? I’ve always had a small group of friends and haven’t dated much and was fine with that until I liked this girl for 3 years and lost her. Now I want someone in my life and don’t want to feel lost and lonely anymore.
Why am I annoyed by roommates for no reason? This happens with every roommate. Their breathing and snoring starts to repulse me. Their presence when I wake is usually met by an unnecessary feeling of agression, as if it wasn’t their room as well. The persons voice and the smallest, most benign mannerisms become unbearable. I know it isn’t rational. It worries me because I do want to marry one day, so I don’t know how i’d cope with sharing a space with a spouse. Is there an Explanation.
EDIT: For the answers saying "live on your own", I can’t . I am in college and live in a dorm. I am currently studying abroad in Europe, so I have someone in my room and then 5 other people in the apartment. I should have mentioned that. It wouldn't be a problem if I could get away from them.
I got some problems in love...after my gf discovered an anime world , my relationship with her got destroyed. Because we live separated , when we text message we do "roleplays" , those roleplays first started with only us , we played like we live with eachother , and i loved that kind of stuff because it maked me less sad to think that i cant be with her (near her) for a long time , also she drawed a lot of thingz with us , and we haved a normal relationship , but after she discovered an anime called Hetalia , my relationship with her started to destroy , she started to have a crush on a character , i was ok , she was a girl who was a fan of a cartoon carachter ,after that she started to have more, but...our "roleplays" changed...she only want roleplays with that anime...and she do draws with them , and...she loves them more then me , i got replaced! We nealy broke today because she thinks if she continue she will forget about me...and i should forget about her...it hurted so much...and our relationship is now in "complicated mode"...she sayed that she want me as a bf and also as a friend...she sayed that we can still be a couple...but it will not be like before... Also...daily she gives me pictures with them , with message " i want to kiss you",is also something else...she sayes earlyer...that she wasn't meant to have a boyfriend...but she cant "leave me" i am paranoid? Should i do something?