Probably that you subconciously want to have sex with him. Not sayin you do or don't, but that may be it.
If you like Vampire Academy you should read House of Night. It is truly an Amazing series! And there are 7 books out as of right now. The next is Awakened and it comes out in January of 2011.
Personally, I would go to the Future. I would want to see how everything looks and what is different and how my family an friends change and everything.